Jackson

IDAT's son Jackson passed away last night. I cannot imagine losing a child and even being able to function. IDAT has already written a breathtaking, heartbreaking entry in her blog about it and I hope you'll check it out.

I am going to make a donation to this charityin Jackson's name. Check it out and if you would like to make a donation too then let me know and we can add them together. They accept donations via paypal so that's probably what I'll use.

Leaving on a jet plane

Looks like Jesse and I will probably be headed to California for a couple of days. We both need to go for a couple of appointments at the surrogacy agengy and we'll have to go soon. Like, less than 2 weeks soon. Yikes! Things are moving fast. But that's good! Now I just have to arrange for someone to take care of the kids while we're gone. I don't think that will be too hard. Who wouldn't want Thing 1 and Thing 2 at their house for a couple of days? Hello? Anyone?

There is some rough stuff ahead for IDAT and her husband. They are facing some decisions with Jackson that no parent should ever have to make. She's written about it here and I hope you'll check it out. Her words are so raw and so real that I feel like anything I say about her situation would just be silly and meaninless in comparison. If you do check it out, please leave her some kind words. Even if you don't know her I think it might help for them to know that people care. It's a terrible situation that they're in right now. I can't even let myself think about it too much, I've already cried enough today.

So, I'm going to try to focus on the good. I'm going to hug my babies extra tight today. Then I'm going to smile when I think about the night of blissful, child-disturbance-free sleep I'm going to get when we stay over night in California.

Prayers

Please, please, please pray for Jackson. He's not doing so great and he could use the extra help right now. I can't imagine what his parents must be going through right now. It's ..... I don't know, my mind won't even let me go there. Just try to keep a good thought in your head for him today.

Annoyed

Argh. I'm not in a good mood today.

Joseph's behavioral therapist has come up with a theory that Joseph a) doesn't have Aspergers and b)has Reactive Attatchment Disorder. This bugs me for a lot of reasons. I'm suspicious that one of ther big reasons for thinking this is that he's adopted. In fact she told me that a lot of adopted children have this. I guess I don't buy it. I would be less skeptical if she had said she thought he has RAD in addition for AS. I'm annoyed and I don't want to think about it right now.

I got a call from the surrogacy agency that I was working with. The key word there is "was". Turns out that there is not a hospital close enough to me that will accept their insurance. There goes that. Now I have to start researching agencies again and start the whole application/intervew process over. Bah.

If you're the praying kind then please continue to pray for baby Jackson. He's very sick right now and could really use a little extra help. Thankfully IDAT has gotten better and is now out of the hospital but she hasn't even been able to hold her little guy yet since he's so sick. It breaks my heart that they're having such a rocky start so, yeah, keep them in your prayers. (Oh, and thank you mom for doing the distance healing for him.)

Has anyone in this family ever even seen a chicken?

Joseph has never watched Arrested Development but he can do an impression of Gob acting like a chicken that just kills me. One day he was in another room talking to Jesse and I heard him (Joseph) say "What are you? A chicken? Cah-cah-chaw! Cah-cah-chaw!" He's now refined his impression and it includes arm waving, hand clapping and leg kicking.

Here's the kicker though. Elle has seen him do it so many times that now she does it too. She hears him do it and then, in her chirpy little voice she joins in with "cah-cah-caaaahhhhh!" We're also teaching her to say "Annyong". She's pretty close. The kid only just yesterday learned to say "nigh-nigh" but she can already to two running gags from AD.

In other kid news, the little boy who called Joseph a baby now knows how it feels to be called a name. Last week at school he bumped Joseph as he was taking off his jacket and Joseph called him the meanest name he could think of. Fortunatly the meanest thing he could think of was "ballerina". The teacher pulled them both aside and they all had a talk about how it feels to be called a name and how they can better handle problems. Joseph said they both learned a lesson and it seems to have taken care of the problem. If it comes back up again I'm going to have to teach him some better insults though.

If you have a few prayers or good thoughts just laying around feel free to send them IDAT's way. She just gave birth to her first child, a GIANT baby boy and they're both in need of a little healing power right now. She's one tough mother-trucker though so I know both she and baby Jackson are going to be ok but a few extra good wishes thrown her way couldn't hurt.

Is that Barney over there?

We are sick. Elle, Joseph and I all have big bad colds. Both the kids have ear infections too. We're a fun group to be around. Jesse knew I was feeling bad yesterday when he saw what I was wearing. I broke out my giant purple nightshirt. I haven't worn that thing since the night before Elle was born. This thing is huge. Even when I was 9 months pregnant it was loose on me. It's perfect for wearing when you're sick.

So now the kids are in bed and I am going to take a big dose of Nyquil and conk out myself. If you're in need of a good read then check out IDAT over there on the right. She's an awesome woman.